Smile when somebody hurt you

Yesterday i find out that women in my office jelous about my salary. For them,my salary to high for beinner. Yes im agree its a good salary for beginner, but not higher than them. I know theres issue that our percentage of incentive will change. And i know that my salary will bigger. And they cant accept it becuse they think they already work for many years(3,6,and 10 years) and me who just work for less than 1 year got that big salary. Laugh out loud! Well,its about lucky madam. But i dont think its unfair at all. My work load is much as old accountant,so why i should got lower salary? Well,i got moral of the story. If you work only for money,than god will show you that life isnt always about money. And even you got much money,you never feel grateful. They never have piece on their mind. And its punisment for those who keep jelous for what others got. Thats why they keep in nissan for long years,and still stuck on their position. Because like other jelous person,god never let them to be a big person.
On my side,i just dont care with them. They can keep jelous,said bad thing about me,or even do bad thing to me,and ill keep quiet. I still nice to them,because i dont want to be same with them. Im a muslim,and ill do what muslim should do. Forgiving.

Keep talking about me,u just make me more famous

Yesterday mr.hab told me and frans that many emPloyee comPlaint about us. That we were to noise when we together,that we were act like we were still on college. I dont understand what is exactly we have done,until they can take conclution like that. I asked tO mr hab who was complaint about us. I guess it must be mikes. Mr hab said everybody complain: mikes,yeni,lia,yuni.ok,i agree that we were noisy,but i think that old women are noisy too. Everyday mikes gossip by phone,in a loud voice and everyday yeni yelling. And that even louder than us. I said to mr hab,that he should talk to them about their behaviour too. Mr hab answer that i and frans are new in the office,and we should remember that mikes and yeni are adjutant of our director. Even head Office can kick out if the director unhappy. Such a coward! So,mr hab just follow to the strongest position,however unfair it sound. He doesnt has any Princip and always want to safe. I know he doesnt has any bad intention to us but i cant agree with him. If he think like that,so that old women can do whatever they want. Oh come on,director isnt god,right? Ok,im agree as long as they complain realistic. But if not,ill ignore it. So what if i kick out of the office. I dont have any kid to feed anyway. Well,me and frans make deal that we'll not talk loudly anything beside job thing on office hour. We agree to change about that,but i believe there will be another complaint about us. Its not our behaviour they complain about. That old ladies want us to be bent down to them,to follow whatever they said. Hah! Not in the milliOn years! So i can take conclution from this conversation,that i cant belive all women in the office. I decide to take distance from them. Ill only talk about job. Remember,sOmebody who gossip with you,will be gossip about you. Dont tell anything,dont hear anything

Face my fear part 1 (someday there will be part2)

Today when u woke up in the morning, i have one decision on my head. I will bike, even if it kills me. My brother in law bought a new tall bycicle. Are every bycicle tall nowadays? At first i trIed to ride it,i didnt know how to put my butt on the seat, my foot cant stand in the ground, and the seat eat my pussy(yes,it hurt). But i promise myself that i will never give up to my fear. So today, i push myself to ride it. After i know the trick to climb on and to stop that bycicle, i feel liberate. My fear makes me think that ill fall and my pussy will hurt, but im not(of course, there ergonomic sign in the seat). I feel so good after fight my stupid thingking and now i can bike around my neighbourhood. I know its sound silly, but i already fight my fear. Next, i want to try bungee jumping at macau.

1st coffe of the year

Its my 1st coffe of the year. As always,i'll be think when i enjoy my coffe. So,a question come up:"should i change myself because the year change?".i guess something new is always excite us. I still on my way to control my mind,so i dont want to overwhelming myself with goal. So i decide to write on lesson than i got on 2011:
1.dont let yourself lost in imagination and expectation.
If we let ourself,than we'll be hurt. Nothing on this abstract world you can control, beside your own mind.
2.always and always think before doing something.
I can lay on my bed whole day on holiday, but i should push myself to do important thing. Or i'll loose my chance. Think about future result,before doing something.
3.friendship takes time
I know frans since we were on college(4 years),but just lately i can say she's my closest friend.
4. Never ever join to bad gossip
I hate when somebody gossip about me so i try to keep my mouth close
5. Do everything mindfully and focusly
I know now that if i enjoy with my work,than i dont have to work at all.
6.try to accept everyone as the way they are
Sometimes. Somebody annoy me,but i know i annoy somebodyelse too. Nobodys perfect after all