NULIS LAGI

Setelah lama gak nulis,saya memutuskan untuk kembali,and btw saya nulis dalam status yg baru : ibu rumah tangga. Hoho,yes i do. Dan saya cukup lucky,karena saya menikah dengan pria yg saya tulis dalam post2 sebelumnya. Seorang pria salafi yang sehari2nya pake celana gantung..Nah pembahasan saya kali ini,bukan tentang pernikahan,tp tentang celana gantung. Karena sepertinya celana gantung gak masuk dalam kategori keren bagi sebagian orang,maka saya ingin memberi pembelaan terhadap celana gantung. Berikut keuntungan memiliki suami yg make celana gantung : 1.Kalo mau jahit celana,bahanya lebih dikit.Hemat beib! 2.Nyucinya gampang,secara gak nyentuh lantai. DAN yang paling penting: 3.Pria yg memakai celana gantung menunjukan bahwa ia adalah orang yg PD dgn apa yg diyakininya,tanpa harus menjadi sama dengan orang kebanyakan. Keren kan?

things on my head at 1am in the morning

its ramadhan already, and i already decide to not open my blog and fb account along this month,because its kind a busy month. But i cant sleep tonight so i decide to write. Two days before Ramadhan started,i have chance to talk with 'the man'. The conclution from the conversation is, i like him more! I like to hear him,i like the way he speak, i like the way he laught. And the most important thing is i like things that come out from his mouth. Ah,such a good person. The question is,am i good enough? Another good thing that happened is he gave me Islamic books. Sweet,right? Im so happy! But im afraid i missunderstand about this. So,i really need to control my head,to not expect anything.

i cant sleep tonight so i decide to write.

i feel good

i have special feeling for a man that seem not having same feeling with me. Frans,already close to a man,but the relationship seem didnt work well. So,we kind of in same situation. On our conversation,frans asked me,'what will you do next? Forgeting him and search for somebody else or just waiting for him?'. That question makes me think. Well,ill not try to forget him. Why should i? First,its not easy to forget a person that you really like. Second,i feel happy with this crush feeling,eventough he not feel the same way. And i dont care if people think that im patethic. So,ill not try to forget him,but ill not wait for him too. Waiting is another word for expecting. And i dont want to have any expectation. Ill be dissapoint if i expect something and not become true. So,the answer of frans question is,'nothing'. Ill do nothing. I just enjoy this situation. And insya Allah i accept everything that will happen next. Maybe ill meet somebody else,maybe he'll answer my feeling for him,maybe he'll be stuck on my head for a long time, or whatever. I dont know. But today,i just enjoy my feeling for him :D

hiks!

i just went shopping with yeni. Well,we talk about the man that i wrote on previous post. Yeni asked me,'how my relationship with him'. I answer it with,'nothing, i think he not interest with me. No message from him anymore.' yeni:such a weird person,first he not interest with u,than he seem interest,and now not interest again. Me: yeah,i thinked i got positive signal from him,but now nothing. Yeni: maybe he kind of person wich woman should be more active. Me:well,i think if a man really interest with a woman,he'll do something,right? Yeni:yeah,i think you better forget him. And now i realise that maybe yeni is right,maybe this guy not interest with me. Argh! So im misunderstood his kindness. Now i have to learn to accept the fact that he not interest with me. :(